just another update bout my wherebout~

In just a blink,3 months passed just like that..Im gonna miss some of my friends here..and back to penang..to join Keon,Wei Lun,Richard, William, Sing, and YTW...bunch of male friends..and most of times im the only gal..thank god im not turn into a guy!plan to back penang and hide myself as usual in the big house.with ma dogs.hehe.sometimes its better to stay inside than creating trouble outside.Its not wrong to have fun sumtimes,party..drink..wat-so-ever..but honestly to said,therez always gotta be a limit. And seems im always over the limit.

3months ago,i caused the world to turn upside down.What i mean is "my world". Thinking back what i have done, i feel regret.guilt.sad.and depressed. Currently settled down at the new place, a place where i can stay away from trouble and the most important thing is..away from the city. Most people dunno what i was thinking.no one knows.unless i told them bout my past.

Here, I met different kinds of people.From good to bad people.funny people.people full of problems. Here at first i don't talk much to people. just recently maybe cuz im not used to stay at home..staring at the empty walls and ceiling..i decided to hang out. Just a place called gym. Well,here i met some nice,friendly and funny friends. Gonna miss the times i spent here.

I goin back penang tomorrow morning and say goodbye to my "hiding place". Goin to have another gathering with my besties..Not sure wether they still will ask me the same q..so hows our Sook Ling?stil create trouble?new guy?err...sumtimes i just speechless..

Later im gonna update some pictures..to let some of friends see how am i doin recenlt..those who's concern bout me.gonna miss a lot of people...

Q and A..

Itz already 3.30pm.*sigh*...have to wait till 6.00pm. Headache again.Itz been almost 5-6 years. Headache.migrane. Wutz the difference anyway? The similiarities is just PAIN. Im ok.problem is just tired and hard to breathe.still alive. Pain till almost get used to it di. nvm.

I just bought a new Cleo magazines when I was in KL that time. I brought it back here. One of my bestfriend was too busy for me, fine. Then i'll just stay here and read ma magazine then. *happy* cuz tonite im goin for a movie with him. Yea..im outdated. Haven watch terminator yet.

"So,tonite movie at 8kayz"?
"O..Okayz"
"Wanna call Keon out to join us"?"seems he's free di after off from work"
"Err, depends on you then. But he alwayz say he's too tired or busy with his galfriends.."
"oo..okay then"

"TEST YOURSELF" "ARE YOU SPOILING HIM ROTTEN"?

ok..this page caught my eyes..I grabbed a pen on the table and started the Q & A.. Here's the Q and A:

1:u've noticed his white T-shirt have turned a blotchy shade of pale pink. U say:
a)"U have to separate whites from colours.Next time u wash, I'll show you how"(2m)
b)"Why don't you let me do your laundry?"(1m)
c)Nothing. If he can't figure out how to do his laundry, Itz his prob(3m)

2:True or False:
The love of ur life will anticipate all ur needs. If you have to tell him how much u'll appreciate
being taken to dinner, he's not right for you"(2m for false)
Err...TRUE.(1m)

3:Your man's ex-gf has gone to lots of his family do's. You on the other hand, have yet to meet
his parents. How would u react if he's invited her-and not you-to his sisters wedding?
*scratch*...Umm...i just skip this Q..

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10: You have three tickets to a sold-out coldplay gig, which your man and your best friend
would both kill to see- They can't stand each other. Who do you take? a)your bestfriend and another friend b)your man and his bestfriend c)your bestfriend and your man- you'll sit between them.
*yawn*...ok done..whatz my score?total..42points.okay..so the results..

YOU SHARE THE SPOILS
you have the best kind of relationship: you give and are appreciated-you dun give to be appreciated.While you don't exactly lavish him with attention, ure generous with your love. You treat him with respect and recieved the same in return................ ............................................................................................................... ............................................................................................................... "Don't change yourself by putting up with someone who's not as loving as you.

yea right..hell not true. I broke up with ma bf few weeks ago.

Listened to the Hitz.fm..vote for Krist Allen or Adam Lambert for the latest song, "No Boundaries".. Ok..I alwayz listen to Adam Lambert sings..and this time they put the same song title by Krist Allen. I just switched to another channel. No boundaries..ADAM LAMBERT!!his voice better,ok?So, Vote for ADAM!!My "eyeliner" guy.

Phua family at ulu yam~2009

from top left: Yipin, Giri, Danny
From bottom left: Yek Thoon, me and Wen Z

Dunno what Im doin. Champion was laughing at who?

Sweet couple~

Mr Muscle.
Wen Z's pet.*laugh*

papa & mama

say "cheeZzeeee"

Ma galfriend~

VICTORIA 2007

WEN Z 2007

We met at UTAR, and youre my bestfriend!

"BFF itz a promise, not a label"

Star necklace: "bestfriend"
Taken at Pavillion,KL

Port Dickson 2009

We went to our first prom nite together

This year is different~we have a date!
2009

@ barBQ plaza 2009

We've been through so much
We've been through it all
She's been there for me when i was down
She alwayz catches my fall

I love her like a sister,
Because her friendship is true
I don't know anyone like her
anyone different won't do




We all seek out friends,
to make people happy,to make ourselves happier
but there are those who are nice to you who you know,
there are your friends, but beyond that are your true friends,
They are real.

Victoria

Im home.

Bus reached butterworth bus station at 6.00pm. In the bus earlier, I called mum to come fetch me home. But mum said,"sorrie im busy. Have to attend my friend's wedding dinner". Try to call bro.............................................................................................................*hung up*
T-T..............kayz.."okie i can fetch you home"...he said..........*happy*..................................................
..........................20min later, "hello,sry bro can't fetch you.Busy now.try call dad".*hung up*...........................................................................................................and i know my dad's busy too....
....no choice, i called my bestfriend. He too busy..got meeting..T-T..but thank god another close friend of mine willing to fetch me..*yay*.Thankz a lot, Thien Sing!muax~

Tired and sad, I walked in the house. Before i got time to step in the house, ok..my sista. My little sis, can help me?pls...

Pls sis dun begged me....T-T..what izzit?what i can help?..

Err...im goin for company's dinner..so the honda accord kinda dirty..so can help me wash pls?.......ToT...

"Im heartbroken, sad,depressed,and pain"...i answered in a smile, "sure,why not"

"THANK YOU"!...uuhh.............ure welcome...
It took me almost 30 min to washed the car.Plan to cuci cincai at 1st, but dad said," CANNOT!Itz a nice car ok?so must really clean"...dad,Im sad and tired and sleepy ok!..but I just kept quiet.

Dad asked, "ur sis gonna use this car"?....yea..dad scolded sis, drive so big car for what?wanna drive my mercedez go?"....err..dad..no other car di ok?...

My sis are old enough to drive any car she likes..dad..pls dun treated us like a small gal..

Tired and frustrated, I walked in. Rest a while and then shower. But bfore that, dad called,"sook ling,can help dad tapao pasar malam"?....................................*scream*

"Ok daddy wan makan ape"?...and I just walked to pasar malam......................................................................Came back at 8.00pm..okie i wan shower di..*sweat*...WAIT!."okie okie i know!have to serve my dad"..

9.30 pm..at last i can makan! "sookling,what u eat"?

"oh,just a bit only..too hungry"

1 packet of nasi ayam
1 murtabak
1 Laksa buyung
3 samosas
1 fried chicken

WHAT!!err..dad,im hungry...at least eat a lot will feel better.I won't get fat anyway.

Bro came back. I watched 'supernatural' series my his room. To accompany him. At 1st he seemed dun like it cuz itz lame, but later on he joined me. Itz almost 4 thatnite and at last i gave up.cuz im too tired!"nitez bro".

goodbye

3dayz passed like a ZAp, and still i felt gloomy,sad. Yea, i have an ability.POWER.Im Galpower. Im Emogal. Last Saturday, after had my last lunch with my galfriend, I had to go. Back to my normal,dull life. Think back..itz better this way. Cuz i felt like a B*** in KL. Ignored my bestfriends advice totally killed me.

The night before that, sumtin terrible happened. The worst i ever faced in my life. I tried to asked for help. The one can saved me. My bestfriend. But sadly, he was in Penang that time. When i thought he already gave up on me, another close friend of mine saved me! He asked me not to worry and he will be there ASAP. Thank god you saved me!Thank you Alex Yu! That time only i realised my bestfriend had called him earlier. Told him that im sad and needed someone to mend my broken heart.

"The best Mirror in the world is an old friend"

He came all the way from Subang to my place,Setapak. Thatz far for him, especially he dun even can recognise the place. He reached my place bout 2.30am. Back to his place should be 3 sumtin. *sigh*.
Itz ok.Im not sleepy that time. In his car, he asked" what happen?" and "what happen to ur hands and leg?"..............................................................................................................................................
...........................................cuz he's my old friend, I told him what exactly happen to me.
He just laughed..and that he said, "Gal dun be so naive..........and ure so stupid for hurting urself like that"..........."If I told this to Keon, I bet he will slap you right on ur face that time"......And that time i still heven finish pack my stuff at MU. But i really can't take it anymore. I have to leave.

I stayed at his house in Putra heights. Yea..same room with him. Double bed. Dunno why i had this thoughts in my mind. But most ppl whould think that way! "If he/she in trouble, and there an opposite sex accompany or be there for him/her, Something sure happen". Well Im wrong for this time. Tired and sleepy, I slept on his bed and he off the lights to sleep too that time. Itz a bit funny at 1st but later on i feel touched by his action. We shared the same bed but he squeezed himself at the rightside, the end of the bed. And left a huge space in between us.lolx. Now i realised who is my truefriend. yea..i can't simply hugg ppl..cuz this action might "stimulate" them?Hmm...emo that night still..bla bla bla..

and the next day im in the bus already. Ntg to do in the bus, as usual..listened to my mp3 player. argh..all chinese emo songs..dunno i should hate or like them. Itz all my favourite songs that i told him last time. Songs makes me sad, plus i read some notes my ex gave to me last time.I just can't stop my tears from flowing from my eyes. Luckily ppl were sleeping that time. Too many sweet memories we had last time. Itz hard for me to forget him. Mistakes that i did, I just can't forgive myself. Scars i have created on my hands and legs just can't "wash" away my guilt. Im the one to blame for all these..

memories of what it used to be..gonna miss them so much..my housemates and coursemates. Seemed i need a long time to heal myself, here in penang. Im grounded for this time. Keon, Thien Sing, Wei lun, Alex Yu, Richard, William, WT..If next time i take the wrong path again..pls do SLAP ME HARD!

memories of what used to be

I wonder if he remembers me , or if I'm just a memory.
I wonder if he thinks of me, or if he finds it useless
I wonder how he is and if I'm still a love of his
I wonder if he's okay.
I've been thinking, how happy we were and the memories make the tears stir
Think about all we said, the lives we lead, not know where to go and where to find a place.
One day, I may hide and not be able to see his face.
I miss him looking out for me, the way it used to be.
I wonder if he still cares...
That's a question that tears..
I wonder if he still cares or if I'm just a memory of what used to be..